Goodbye, ________ __________

This is manifestation.

I will prevail and I will overcome. The fear that has taken root in me is not because of this, it is because of who I was a week ago, six months ago, six years ago. And in six months I will not be that person anymore. I will have compassion, I will have patience. I will have focus and intention, motivation and ability to prioritise. I will give it my everthing because I have to want to.

This is a manifesto.

Saying goodbye will not change me. It will not prove anything to me or anyone. It will only be me crossing something off a list. It will not be my all, it will not be a sign of anything. It will not be a major achievement in my life. I will not let it be bigger than what it is. It will be something amongst everything else. It will be small. I will make it small. I will make this hill climbable.

This is not my Everest.

I will do it because I want to. I will do it because to learn is a gift. I will do it because it will be a story to laugh about. It will become just another thing.

It has given me so much good, and I have made it into something evil. Something to be scared of, something to hate. I have made it a blinking sign of all the things that are wrong with me. It proves nothing. It correlates to nothing.

Saying good bye does not define me.

It will be good. It will be gentle. It will be just another thing and then it will be over.

And with that, after six years it will finally be

Goodbye. Thank you, and good bye.